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drama went over well. we had a good turn out at the play and everyone did thier parts really well. and to top it off, tiffany, meghann, and i went to chelos afterwards and pigged out :)

we went to colleens around 11. sleep over. i crashed as soon as i got there. had to wake up at 6:30 for the retreat in cranston. the day was seemingly well. FBI showed up.

apperently scott, mike, alex, phill, justin, and noah came about 5 seconds from being murdered by two guys high on crack in a grave yard at 10:30 at night. ive learned to really apprecaite them :)

friendlys after the retreat obviously. tiff, kathleen, and i slept at colleens again. john david woke me up at 8:30 dressed up in a lion costume, asking me to watch ice age with him. MAN I LOVE THAT BOY! Went out to breakfast after with dad, without showering of course. and it so happens the morning im still in pj's, i see all these people i know. lovely :) alex picked me up around 2:30 and we headed over to wrenthem outlets for a little bit. manda got us free coffee :D came back here and played mario for a little before heading over to st andrews for the play which was nice. met some people, played in snow, DIDNT see nick :( which sucked.

im really learning to apprecaite alex and the talks we have sometimes. he really helps me out, just knowing i can vent and whatnot becuase were on the same page with so many different things. yeah it rocks yo.

you have to realize that people are going to talk about you, whether or not you are really good friends, aquaitences, or enemies. people will find something to say about you. it could be that you acted really immature sometime, or were really bitchy at another time. but then to counter act that, someone out there loves youand cant wait to talk to you. someone loves all the stupid things you say, and like you, thinks its hilarious. someone is thinking about the times theyve spent with you and is missing those memories. and that is what keeps me going.

this pretty much started when fr dave asked me to write a testimony for the nexy retreat in ny. and i got to thinking how everything got started when i moved to cumberland 3 years ago. it got pretty bad over time, i was such a wreck.

i thought of how good of a person i am.

i thought of how bad of a person i am.

i thought about kyle and how i would do anything just to be with him including let all my friends down. how i would look for the smallest amount of good in all the lies and deciet. i thought about how he would leave and come back expecting me to fall for him all over again, and how i did every single time, and how i went to bed crying every night over this for about a year.

i thought about kelby and the 6 months we were together. how ridiculously niave i was. i thought about the parties and how i put on a different mask around certain people. i thought about fighting with people i cared about only becuase i thought i loved him.i lied to my parents constantly. i thought about camping out with him over the summer, and swimming in the reservior, and going to the 4th of july parade in the pouring rain, and riding on the handle bars of his bike.

i thought about peter more than i thought about anything else. how on my last day of cumberland high he came over and we played with my puppy. how we planned to live in a van and go to maine one day. how we watched donnie darko and played music and went trick or treating and how we werent on the same page with some of the most important things in my life. how he seemed to test my beliefs.

i thought about kim and how we were best friends, practically family. and how we were seemingly joined at the hip. now i barely see her.

and tiffany, my best friend in the entire world. i dont know how good of a friend i am to her. its inevitable that people get into arguements but im sorry for letting her down.

i thought about all the people in cumberland high that i havent seen in ages. how i seems like i was just completely washed out of their memory because im not a drinker or smoker and becuase i love god .freshman year at CHS was the best, and worst of my life.

thats enough bitching. noah sent me a program to play mario on my computer :D :D

and ive got some ( pictures )

school started again today. gross.

my phone bill just came in. $60 gross.

sooo heres my weekend.

fridaynight. girls night bingo at tiffanys. large amounts of people. went out with alex around 10 or so. drove around for a couple hours. played in the snow and got to drive his car. yeeeahhhaaa! slept at tiffanys. yahurrrd

saturday. went to mems for a little while in the morning. errands with father to lowes and whatnot. ran into my old teacher from lincoln :) haha.alex picked me up at 2 and we went to his school for a basketball game. they lost 84 - 83. hahaha :) drove around for a little. went to the mall looking for an old nintendo but failed. saw tons of people. met a myspace boy and probably should have tackled jackie at the bottom of the escalator. :)bought candy and then picked up tiffany from work. watched rocky horror. good night yo.

sunday. mass and quizbowl and tiffany.

im rushing to get to the pictures of my new hair and other stuff. Okayyyy :) Jen did my hair today. I saw the baby also. cuuuute ♥

( hair you go )

heres a slightly pointless update from the girl who is bored. i dont even know why i bother using livejournal anymore. it causes effing problems and no one really cares wat i post and such. but of course, once a week i find myself posting pathitc pictures so you can all see what i did with my time. soooo, ill start with saying vacation has been all right. the week is pretty much ending tonight but whatever. highlights of the week.

plus things.

 + seeing christopher :)

 + cat in the hat day

 + sleeping til 10 or 11 everyday

 + Tiffany

 + Driving with Manda

 + The nice boy at work

minus things.

 - being bored sometimes

 - still working

 - online drama. pshh. shall we elaborate on that. probably not becuase im not bout to bash a person through livejournal. its not my style yo. and plus you probably know this person and if anything was said you would be like, awwww shes soooo nice. and she reads this. im not saying she isnt a decent young girl but to assume things just makes her and myself look like assholes. HI "GIRL" HOW YA DOING? :)

 - not seeing alex all week either because he was sick or becuase his school just couldnt have vacation the same week as everyone else

 - going through my money like theres no tommorow and still having to pay half of my costume for the play next week. $25 bitches. shut up, i have to pay from my own pocket.

 - more snow = gross!

all right. so whats up? like i said, the week was pretty much okay. i started talking to a myspace boy whom i knew from elementary school. he punched my sister in the eye in the 3rd grade. delightful.

i decided i love my dog. we are cuuuuuute :)

actually i just like how this came out. word

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